Gracelyn has been a bit of a challenge lately and the older the gets the more signifigant her developmental delays emerge. There are days that you would never know there is anything wrong with her and then there are days like last Tuesday where I found myself in tears because I don't know how to help my child. Academically she is doing great in school, she is very social and overall copes great. Then there are the moments when nothing is right in her world like the feel of her clothes, the many noises that flow in and out of her ears or the overload she gets from just going to the store. The shaking she does has increased immensly and is more intense then ever. I use all the tools given to deal with what I have been given but there are times when I feel like I am helpless. These are some pictures of Gracelyn from therapy last Tuesday. All day long she was trying to get a sensation to her body and it just wasn't happening. Mary her therapist let her do shaving cream which is typically done on the mirror but Gracelyn needed to feel it on her body so we let her. This is something that often happens with her food, drink etc. Autism, PDD, Sensory disorder and OCD are the very things that torture my daughter everyday. There are days that I am fine with it and then there are days that I want to have answers. Like what caused it and how can I help her???? Something that helped her yesterday may not help her tomorrow. I have always been a person that when someone is injured or sick you take medicine or get surgery to fix it. I don't have these options with my daughter but the one thing I know more then ever is that she grew my heart more then I ever thought possible and her delays have taught me the most patience I have ever had in my entire life!
There is a movie that was just realeased called Temple Grandin and I highly reccomend it. It gives you a little insight into the mind of a Autistic individual.
